Before I forget again, I'd like to say thanks to all who wished me happy birthday. Yes, that is just how long it's taken me to remember.
I am now 346 pages into the book. This last chapter had me almost crying. Oh, and remember I said I'd had hopes for the ball? I was wrong. But it only added to everything that piled on top of each other throughout the next several chapters. And someone with far more artistic talent than I could hope for should draw a picture of Zachery standing on the steps of the castle in the pre-sunrise eerie lighting with his trench coat swooshing about his ankles. That would make a really neat picture.
Wore my hair in a nautilus bun with my black elasticy hair clip thing criss-crossing over it. And we had chicken and rice for dinner. I wore the same black undershirt I wore on Thursday but this time paired it with my gray Yoshi tshirt. It's nice to be able to wear my summer shirts in winter. Usually in winter my undershirts are large enough I have to wear regular tshirts over them (men's small or boy's xl), so I don't wear many girl shirts. I sometimes don't like wearing them anyway because of how they show off my fat. I was 118lbs on my wedding day. Why, oh why, couldn't I maintain that? I intend to get that small again after we move. I'll have the energy to, and be more motivated.
I brought home another box and four more buckets. I have three buckets packed with fabric and another that's almost half-way full. I will pack up my sewing stuff first because it will give us the room we need to store stuff. There's no real projects I have in mind for the next few months anyway. Fix my work pants, maybe, the thighs have been splitted out for over a month now. I did a little bit of a repair job on them a few weeks ago but that's ripped out by now. I do not want to have to buy new work pants with three months to go! My work coat needs to be patched up too. I already fixed a hole that was in the pocket, but the sleeve is ripping so I need to fix that. My coat I can understand breaking, I've had it for well over a year or two now. But I still don't want to have to replace that so close to us leaving. If I can make myself fix them it would be ok. Dunno about the pants, though, like I said, I already fixed them once. They're next to me, I put them there last night, in the hopes that I would remember to do it today. But I didn't. Maybe tomorrow. I'm off tomorrow.
Which brings me to my next thing. We're getting someone new trained in dairy and I don't know who. John. Whoever that is. Apparently one of the night crew newbies. I don't know some of the guys on night crew anymore. Some bald guy and some bulky guy. I guess it's good that we'll have someone trained in dairy? And speaking of that, I learned the other day that Justin's back up from Nevada. He'd left in late summer to move down there and now he's back and working at Super 1. As a bagger. He used to be my assistant manager before I had Dustin. So when I quit if he's still a bagger and I mention to Zhaun that Justin's back they might ask him if he wants back. Dunno if he's rehirable after the mess he left Wall Deli in (he switched from dairy to night crew to wall deli). But they hired back Darby, so they would have to rehire him. Dunno if he'd want to work for Bret anymore. Now he knows what I mean when I say Dennis was awesome. And they've got Roy or whatever as the assistant store director over there! He was a CSM at work for a while and he was really good.
Anyway, because I'm doing 5-1s next week I should have been in bed an hour ago in order to get my body ready for going to bed at 7 all next week, but I didn't. Oh, well. I'll just have to do it tomorrow. I'll have to tomorrow! I work at 5 on Monday. I have no idea when Bonnie's been opening receiving. I'll have to look at the check-in log to find out. She places so much trust in me and says I'm the best backup she has and yet I have so little faith in myself. I guess it's with any position. When I took dairy I knew how to order because Anita taught me when I was her assistant nutrition manager. But I was unprepared for the immensity of it all. At the time Nutrition was doing 16,000 a week and dairy something like 45,000. In Nutrition a hot sale item meant ordering two cases. In Dairy it means 10-40 depending on what it is and how many they're packed in.
I need to stop talking about work. I played Sims some more this morning. I love Sims.
Bonnie's addicted to Farmville. haha Better hope she never plays Sims! She was all excited and telling me about her farm, her cows and her pigs, her little garden, and how she loves pigs and she's got her pigs and blah blah. It was very amusing to hear her say she was playing it both before and after dinner. She's amazed at how long some people can play games. I have no idea what my record is but I bet it was during my first Twilight Princess run. I know I won that game in, like, three or four days with 50 hours of play time. At least I think it was that long, I remember it was on a weekend and I was sick with a cold. Good thing I have a journal I can look in so I can know for sure!!! *poke-poke*

i think everyone at your work recognizes how good you are, just that managers feel insecure easily. like maybe bret and zhaun were nice to competent people over the course of their careers and those people moved ahead of them or left grocery to do better things. holding you back is in their best interest.
ReplyDeleteyou need to test their insecurity. start to act like a manager. really step it up with a cool posture and talk to those under you like an authority figure. truck drivers, stockers, wherever it is appropriate.
if you put your hand in your pocket when you talk, start to just tuck your thumb into your pocket which leaves the rest of your hand in sight and you can use it as part of your cool posture. there's a lot of psychology on what you are doing with your hands and postures that sends authority (or lack of authority) signals to others. looking calm always beats an insecure person.
edit: think about pictures of the fonz, you always see his hands.
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