one big step, coming up

Took more stuff up to our new house area to store.

Wrote my notice and printed it. I am nervous. The nerves started about a month ago. Before, when I thought about telling Zhaun that I was leaving I enjoyed the scenarios I came up with. But as time wore on they got more serious, and sometimes when I thought of it I would feel thrills of nerves pass through my stomach. Now it's the night before. This is when it rings in as being totally real. So many times in my life plans have been made for one thing or another and even a few beginning steps made in that direction, then it falls apart or we change our minds. Things don't feel real until they're there. And now, tomorrow morning I'm going to hand this in. I've went over the conversation in my head so many times I could do it in my sleep. I know Zhaun well enough that I think I have his reaction right. But it's still going to be hard. I just hope they don't turn on me. Bonnie keeps telling me how when Darby put in her notice she had been the golden girl up till then and suddenly after her notice was in all they could talk about was how she'd done such a bad job at everything. And that has me scared too. And this is when a date is set, a definite date. I put June 13th on my notice, because Dustin is going to be gone till the 12th and I imagine they'll want me to to work with him for a while on the 13th. Or if that's not how they want it then they can schedule me full shifts for the 12th and 13th and call those his days off for that week. I signed my notice and I dated it for tomorrow. I also wrote that it was my intended quit date because who knows, they could choose not to have me work on the 13th at all, or have me work the 12th and 13th as full shifts then have me for an hour or two on the 14th to show Dustin stuff.

Either way it is almost 9:00 and way beyond past bedtime. btw, happy birthday to my mom!